Thursday, February 17, 2005
A Reflection of HC
Yahz...after near 2mths of studying in HC i tink i haf a rough idea of wat's is like here....yeahz juz writing some of the things which i feel about....note tt these are the things i feel hence i juz write down anything i tink of and hence there will be poor struture and grammer etc....(directed at Wei Kiat: dont use my reflections to make your decision). This post is going to be unlike other lame and crap post...yes this post is also crap crapped out by me...but it's quite boring....
Upon pondering over this issue, in the end i still think tt perhaps my decision to go to HC is correct...yahz...i m not sure why i choose HC in the first place...perhaps RJ will offer me a betta envt to study in, esp science which i m interested in...
The thing about HC is tt it gives very limited opportunities to only the top students....as so i appear to perceive....from the first day all the competitions, research modules etc offered were all about grades in the prelim exams....i still rmbred some teacher saying tt to apply for these programmes the min criteria is 8 pts???? Yahz...and for S-Paper it's also very competitive...u nidda rank amongst the top for ur subject....and this casts doubt about whether i wld be allow to take 2 S-Paper (my aim) by Year 2. If i were to go to NJC i m relatively sure i can take them... but in the end i decided to stay here and juz give it a try...
Stressful envt??? Of course....tt goes w/o saying....to outperform the PRCs in our class it's already an impossible task...i suppose. Yahz...but i tink S'poreans in our class are also very mugged...they finish the tutorials ahead of time, and most make a serious effort to do their hw despite being their first 3 mths...Yahz, being in CHS for 4 yrs i m quite immune to see other ppl mugging, but here in HC everyone is mugging such tt if u dont do hw for one day immediately other ppl will catch up and overtake you...and you feel so SICK when the teacher gives u a new piece of tutorial...cos u hafnt completed the old one...
Everyone coming into HC are very good in their studies, tt's w/o a doubt....Some topped their sec schls, other mugged very hard to come in herez... But after mugging so hard the ambition of everyone is exceptionally high...If u throw a stone at somebody in HC he/she will tell you tt he/she is aiming for 2 S-Paper and a scholarship to overseas university. Eh...i tink all my classmates want S-Paper...Yepz...but if u actually look at the number of ppl who will get what they want in the end....only 1/5 of students in HC will get 2 S-Papers i tink, or m i being optimistic? And most HC students WONT be getting scholarships in the end because the no. of scholarships are so limited and we have to compete with students from other JCs...Yeahz...tt speaks so much about being over ambitious etc....
Yahz...i m not sure whether i will like this sort of envt in the long run...but right now my frenz and classmates are making sure tt i cont'd to stay here...and most probably i will if results permit...right now i hafnt really worked hard yet and i m not sure if i work hard how long and how piah i can get...cos i hafnt done tt since 'O' Lvl. But because i m part of the statistic i know i must work hard also...is results the only thing HC can offer me????
If yes...there is really no point staying here, is there? I can get results from RJC and NJC also, tt makes HC not unique from other JCs. But right now i see more than results...hopefully the activities in HC will bring meaning to my life...Class spirit wise.....i m not really sure what our class can be up to...at first it seems fun but laterz....i m not sure wat our class can be up to but....
CCA....i m also unsure of what cca can provide me....Most ppl are shocked that i joined harmonica and HACAS...actually it wasnt planned, i juz chose in the end based on gut instincts about the CCA....i went for many trials and trainings for CCAs and made my judgement...and i hopez CCA can be more fun...i mean me finding a sense of belonging and achievement in it at the end of the day...Suprising PEARLS pts are no longer tt impt to me as compared to others...as long as i feel attached tt's most impt...But looking at how kiasu everyone can get...aiming for A, i tink it's time i do something....i CANT DO ANYTHING THAT"S THE PROBLEM...
I expected more from HC when i joined the schl but apparantly i turned out to be disappointed...maybe i expected too much? But it turns out that finally i will be staying in HC taking the same subjects that i m taking now...if 'O' Lvl results permit me....at least i see some meaning here now...will describe it when i feels like it...and ultimately i m as confused as everyone else so dont ask me...perhaps in the end i will put down my choice based on gut instincts...but it tells me it's HC now...perhaps i m juz too tired of doing anything now...including getting adapted to a new envt....yepz tt's all....i guess....DONT MAKE YOUR CHOICE BASED ON WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN....seriously...
Upon pondering over this issue, in the end i still think tt perhaps my decision to go to HC is correct...yahz...i m not sure why i choose HC in the first place...perhaps RJ will offer me a betta envt to study in, esp science which i m interested in...
The thing about HC is tt it gives very limited opportunities to only the top students....as so i appear to perceive....from the first day all the competitions, research modules etc offered were all about grades in the prelim exams....i still rmbred some teacher saying tt to apply for these programmes the min criteria is 8 pts???? Yahz...and for S-Paper it's also very competitive...u nidda rank amongst the top for ur subject....and this casts doubt about whether i wld be allow to take 2 S-Paper (my aim) by Year 2. If i were to go to NJC i m relatively sure i can take them... but in the end i decided to stay here and juz give it a try...
Stressful envt??? Of course....tt goes w/o saying....to outperform the PRCs in our class it's already an impossible task...i suppose. Yahz...but i tink S'poreans in our class are also very mugged...they finish the tutorials ahead of time, and most make a serious effort to do their hw despite being their first 3 mths...Yahz, being in CHS for 4 yrs i m quite immune to see other ppl mugging, but here in HC everyone is mugging such tt if u dont do hw for one day immediately other ppl will catch up and overtake you...and you feel so SICK when the teacher gives u a new piece of tutorial...cos u hafnt completed the old one...
Everyone coming into HC are very good in their studies, tt's w/o a doubt....Some topped their sec schls, other mugged very hard to come in herez... But after mugging so hard the ambition of everyone is exceptionally high...If u throw a stone at somebody in HC he/she will tell you tt he/she is aiming for 2 S-Paper and a scholarship to overseas university. Eh...i tink all my classmates want S-Paper...Yepz...but if u actually look at the number of ppl who will get what they want in the end....only 1/5 of students in HC will get 2 S-Papers i tink, or m i being optimistic? And most HC students WONT be getting scholarships in the end because the no. of scholarships are so limited and we have to compete with students from other JCs...Yeahz...tt speaks so much about being over ambitious etc....
Yahz...i m not sure whether i will like this sort of envt in the long run...but right now my frenz and classmates are making sure tt i cont'd to stay here...and most probably i will if results permit...right now i hafnt really worked hard yet and i m not sure if i work hard how long and how piah i can get...cos i hafnt done tt since 'O' Lvl. But because i m part of the statistic i know i must work hard also...is results the only thing HC can offer me????
If yes...there is really no point staying here, is there? I can get results from RJC and NJC also, tt makes HC not unique from other JCs. But right now i see more than results...hopefully the activities in HC will bring meaning to my life...Class spirit wise.....i m not really sure what our class can be up to...at first it seems fun but laterz....i m not sure wat our class can be up to but....
CCA....i m also unsure of what cca can provide me....Most ppl are shocked that i joined harmonica and HACAS...actually it wasnt planned, i juz chose in the end based on gut instincts about the CCA....i went for many trials and trainings for CCAs and made my judgement...and i hopez CCA can be more fun...i mean me finding a sense of belonging and achievement in it at the end of the day...Suprising PEARLS pts are no longer tt impt to me as compared to others...as long as i feel attached tt's most impt...But looking at how kiasu everyone can get...aiming for A, i tink it's time i do something....i CANT DO ANYTHING THAT"S THE PROBLEM...
I expected more from HC when i joined the schl but apparantly i turned out to be disappointed...maybe i expected too much? But it turns out that finally i will be staying in HC taking the same subjects that i m taking now...if 'O' Lvl results permit me....at least i see some meaning here now...will describe it when i feels like it...and ultimately i m as confused as everyone else so dont ask me...perhaps in the end i will put down my choice based on gut instincts...but it tells me it's HC now...perhaps i m juz too tired of doing anything now...including getting adapted to a new envt....yepz tt's all....i guess....DONT MAKE YOUR CHOICE BASED ON WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN....seriously...
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